Sunday, March 4, 2012

The Doctor's Report Is In

And I'm totally freaking out... again. Well, Friday I freaked out. Today... a bit better. I swear... I'm going to have a head full of grey before I turn 37!

Friday was the day that the hubster went to the doctor to find out his test results from Wednesday. His mother drove him there and back since I had to take care of the kiddos. I'm very thankful that she is able to do that, but I wanted to be there so badly. Since most of his appointments are in the afternoon about the time they get out of school and his appointments have been two hours away... I can't go. The kids can't miss school. My son has already missed too many days.

The hubster called me to let me know they were on their way home and I could tell in his voice that something was wrong.

We knew that he would need to have surgery, but this time... it's official. He's tried everything else they have asked him to try and there is nothing left for him to do.

Basically, his disc is pushed out onto the nerve and that's what is causing his pain.

I'm so scared of him having surgery (as is he). He's my rock! I need him! I don't want anything to happen to him.

Of course, the surgery will be two hours away! I can't drive two hours away... to a huge city... with lots and lots of traffic... by myself! I have horrible, horrible anxiety!

The doctor wants to do a Laminectomy and a Spinal Fusion. He has pain in his hip and back. If he doesn't have both... the pain will not go away.

He will be in the hospital for 3-4 days. Two hours away. How in the world will we work this out if the kids are in school?... even if they're not in school.

If the doctor has any problems going through the hubsters stomach, he's going to stitch him up and go through his back. What?! *Sad Face*

He also found out that he will not be able to go back to his job. He will never be able to move the crane machines again. He will never be able to move furniture or wrestle around with the kids again. This breaks my heart... He can find another job... eventually... hopefully, but to never be able to wrestle around with the kiddos again... 

We could still be waiting weeks, months or even years... depending on Worker's Comp. If not, hopefully most of the cost of surgery will be covered by our health insurance.

Even though I'm terrified and I know that the hubster is too, if this is what needs to be done to get him better then this is what we will have to push through.

I'm thankful that they... at least... know what's wrong with him and that it can be fixed. I've said many, many, many prayers and this is the answer that keeps popping up.

I'm sorry to be negative and a downer... sometimes... life just gets to you...


  1. I'm so sorry Angela! Keeping you and your family in prayer! ((((HUGS)))

  2. Hey there sweetheart...try and relax if you can.. I was in the EXACT same position you are now in 2005.. I had HORRIFIC anxiety to the point I was housebound for MANY YEARS....What I did was I had one of my husbands children come stay with us for a few days.. They took me to the hospital and stayed until he was home.. You WILL get through this because you have too and it will all work out because it has too, right now you are just SUPER overwhelmed and I understand it..

    My husband has had 6 back surgeries and he's looking at a 7th much more serious one in the next 2 months.. being this is your husbands first surgery I know how frightening it is for both of you.. The most important part is that your husband trust his surgeon and is comfortable with him.. if he's not, find a new one..
    Laminectomies, fusions... I know how scarey they sound. My husband has had many.. Your husband will do fine and eventually within a few months he will be able to move around again and play with the kids again he'll just have to be careful.. as for working.. he'll have 2 options.. See if he can find another position or permanent disability through Social Security...depending on how bad his back is medically speaking.

    Also when he can, maybe he could ask his surgeon about whats called an XLIF.. I don't know his whole history with this but you said he needs a laminectomy and a fusion.. if they are only fusing up one or two levels I would ask about the procedure called XLIF.. it's MUCH less invasive, they go through your side instead of your stomach or back.. there is no cutting of muscles which is really where all the recovery and pain comes from..

    My husband has had traditional surgery through the back and then he had the XLIF in 2010.. HUGE difference between the two as far as procedure, pain and recovery but they achieve the same thing..

    I know how overwhelmed you feel at the moment, wish I could help.. Email me anytime.. I'm here whenever you need anything.. My email is [email protected]

    Sending lots of hugs and love to you and hubby

  3. I know you are scared. But, having back issues myself... if this is what it takes for him to feel better, then bring it on. I've heard so many people say that the pain was BETTER immediately after surgery. Breathe... it will be ok.

  4. YOU are in my prayers! I am so sorry Angela for all that your family is going through right now. I too have a disk pressing a nerve in my back from a car accident almost 2 years ago. It seems to move itself so my pain is more intermittant now, but when it's pressing it affects my bladder too! Give hubby a big hug, and we will pray for him! Let me know if you need anything at all! A guest post for a day away... anything.

  5. I'm so sorry to hear of your hubby's condition. I will be praying for him and for you to have peace of mind.


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